HELLO-GOODBYE
Flower means simplicity.
and it's you that I desire.
SHOUT OUT LOUD
It's the third day already.
From since, I have not been smiling. I have not been laughing. I have not been paying attention. I have not been talking. I have not been myself. I tried to fake a smile when I see my friends in the morning and wear it till I end school. But sometimes, I'm just too tired to maintain that smile on my face. When I'm on the bus alone heading home, tears would just automatically well up in my eyes.
At night, around 10 o clock. My heart would act as an alarm clock cos it would just start to ache. I have no idea why but it just remind me of the that day. I dont talk muck now. I write more these few days. Not a diary, but homework. I have been using homework to numb my feelings.
There are lot of things going through my mind. Not only at night, but also during lectures and tutorial too. But there's something weird about me. Whenever I see anybody laughing heartily on TV programmes, it would make me wanna cry even more. Weird right? I've lost faith in everything, including myself. I dont dare to believe in what I say to myself. I'm afraid that what I have always believe in isn't correct. I'm afraid of having high hopes. I'm afraid of failure. Well, I'm a coward. Afraid of this and that.
I can't be that girl I used to be anymore.
