SHOUT OUT LOUD
Thank God, it's Friday tomorrow, it means that after tomorrow there's no more extra lessons and this means that I can sleep till late afternoon(: oh yea :D Went out study with Hui Chin today after school, didn't do much just managed to copy solutions from her for my tutorials. I need help badly in Physics, really.
Why should I hang on to this when I know nothing is gonna come out of it?
7am, no, maybe during 1pm.
i doubt so. maybe 6pm.
i was wrong. then 7pm.
it's night time already.
8pm?
9pm?
it'd been a day. hours and hours of waiting.
but i dont hear a sound or vibration.
i lost hope.
chances have been given, but not treasured.
tired of waiting, but not loving.
pain in my heart, but not yours.
i'm a burden but not an encouragement.
i'm never in your heart, but you're always in mine.
i want to let go, but i dont bear to.
should i tell you, or lock it securely?
even if i've told you how i felt, you wouldn't give a damn about it.
a little more love, is it that difficult?
perhaps that love is given to a new girl
whom i dont know at all.
what is left for me,
is just the remains of our past.
perhaps, dont even consider the past,
consider lingering memories.
dont view it as love, view it as reliance.
dont view it as sacrifice, view it as killing boredom.
dont view it real, cos it's fake.
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In you eyes, I'm insignificant. Ain't I ?* * * *
Went to cut my hair with Hui Chin before going to LuYin's house to do GPP. I hate GPP, like mad. This is like the 4th drath already, and I really hope that it would get approved =X and, AND I LOVE LuYin's dog! It's so much cuter than my dogs luhs. And now, we know the stupid reason for why she dislocated her finger :D
I hate tutorials! D: There so much tutorials for me to do during the holidays ! And dont forget online reading logs._.
After today's incident, I thought you would treasure me more, but I was wrong.Let the pain be gone with the morning breeze.
I really really hope I could at least get a E for my GP. I know I flunked my composition cos' i only wrote 1 and a half side while others wrote more than 2 sides? For comprehension, my application question was so deaded. Hahs. Gone case, i guess.
It was Economics after that. Time was definitely a important factor. I never ever run out of time in my exams before. Cos' I am always the first or second to complete my papers in the past then I'll put my head on the desk and sleep. It's like my first time running out of time. Arghh. I didn't managed to write both my policies ._. 15 marks eh. faints*
Guess I had to totally concentrate on my other subjects to at least get a B to appeal for continuing my 4H2 due to my predicted poor results for GP.
Finally, choir is over! Thank goodness. I can finally like put my mind into studies now. It was a really good experience singing in the esplanade. But it wasn't that emotional compared to last year when we, Sec4s, are supposed to step down after our SYF. But I really had great fun with the J2s seniors, they are nice and funny ! :D
Photo, photo !
Next time luhs. I dont have the time =X
Anyway, got back my math faculty test. Expected, didn't pass. But something came passed my mind. Anyway, JC life is sure scary.
Havent been blogging for days, I think. I didn't have the time or the mood. Concert is like just tomorrow and I'm beat. And yes, Econs and GP SA is just on the coming Friday. It seemed like this is the 2nd time that I'm so uptight about exams. The first time was 'O' levels. =X But well, due to the MANY choir practices, I've lost my momentum to start studying already. I realy need to pace up with the others, or at least do my best.
Celebrated my brother's birthday today.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEN ! :DBut too bad, no presents for you cos' I have no time =X But at least i paid some for the buffet right ?
Alright, back to studying if not there's no time anymore.
It'd been 3months since that promise is made.
MOTHER'S DAY !I woke up at 12 plus today and it was really a nice,sweet and long sleep for me since don't know how many days. I had Choir yesterday and guess how long I styed in school? 7 hours ]= YES. You didn't blink your eye. IT'S 7! Woke up at 7.30am and reached home at 6.30pm. Well, it's for the concert anyway.
First thing first. Happy Mother's Day to my mommy! (: It had been a realy long time since I said it to her cos' I had been unfilial? Yupp. It's true. But I still didn't bought her anything for Mother's Day BUT I had been a really good girl at home, at least I didn't shout or what. =X Oh well, we went to Sakae Sushi for lunch and yea, I ordered her favourite dishes. I paid, you know. I've gone broke.
About this week, I am very pleased to announce that I finally, finally got 15min19secs for my 2.4km (: *claps claps* Though it may not be any achievement to others, it IS a VERY BIG achievement to me cos' I have been getting Es and failing grades for my 2.4km, except for last year. I had Li Zhen running with me and I managed to run for 13mins and I remembered that it's 5 less seconds to an A! Yea, talking about her. We didn't contact at all after 'O's but still yea. I reall needa thank them for supporting me all those 4 years. If not for them, I could not have gotten over it. And still, I remembered that on that day, I ran to Ang Mo Kio to find Li Zhen and yes, I was crying. Anyway, I really hope to meet up with them someday though I know we will run out of topic.
I haven't been doing well for my tests. Take my math faculty test for example, it was a total flop. Dont even mention about GP, it's U grade guys !
U ! But there's something for me to learn, which means I needa work extra hard from now onwards. DANG ! Econs and GP SA is coming. Not at all prepared yet. *faints*
Physics tutorials are already stacked up so high that I can't even see the teacher. I havent do the KLPs for all the policies. I have not been practising math AT ALL. Geography now is like my slackest subject of all.
I have slacked my way through this weekend. Recalling from what I've done for this weekend. it seems like I didn't do anything. You know what was I doing for the last 12 hours?
ANIME! Anime isn't dumb ok!? It's stress relieving can !
LOL. I need a break, like seriously.
I'll try not to get angry anymore.Is it fine with you?
So what is it now?Should I let go or hold on?This is totally a wrong feeling.It's not this.You were so in love with me once,if I were correct.But not now anymore, I suppose.Should I bring myself toend eveything?Stop decieving yourself, boy.You don't anymore. Since you want it your way, I'll let you have your way.
GONEI am sure that I failed my math faculty test today. HOHO. I was never good in math anyway, so yea. It's like thinking back, it's like I am not good in anything? I've never found any subjects easy before. Or maybe should I give up on my JC life, since I'm more to the poly side ?
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DEAD LAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
A Little MoreI think I really need a breather. I'm glad today's choir practice end earlier so that I could sleep till 8.45 before starting on my GPP and my math practice cos' of the faculty test tml. The amount of sleep I'm having every night is definitely not enough. Nightmares just seemed to stick to me whenever I close my eyes. There will be choir practices on Saturday morning till late afternoon and this means that I can't meet up with Hui Chin to build up my foundation for physics again.
A little more till june holidays. Persevere on(:
I'm stressed. There's too much on my mind right now. I just feel like ripping my brain off.
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I just wanna cry in your arms right now, but I know it's impossible.
It's damn f. hot in here la ! ._. I can even sweat in my living room without even moving around but just sitting on my sofa. Goodness !
I need to get my engine started. Tutorials are waiting for me ! DDDD:
and everything has gone wrong, totally wrong.
if i were to stay, maybe i'll just get in your way
Ew, Chin is acting cute ><
Alyssa Chan took this photo herself :D
Defame LooYee ! :D
I ALMOST FREAKING lost my wallet today man !
Like wth? I was in Bus 89 then i was busy thinking of some stuffs and I alighted just like that without realising that my wallet is just next to me._.
Thank goodness that I didn't take Bus 88 if not I got to take cab to Toa Payoh. It's like so far can ? And if i were 1 more second late, that bus would have driven off already. I really needa thank God man.
Oh ya ! About the scenerio on the cab, I was so freaking pissed off la ! I boarded the cab and I cleary stated that I want to go to Hougang interchange. Then he freaking ask me SO many questions on " Which way do you wanna go"? , " So I go from here/there can?" , " Is it nearer for you?" Goodness la. I was like, " Can you just freaking shut your mouth and drive your cab in it's maximum speed? ._."
Today wasn't that great. Jc life is getting more stressed everyday. But why of all times, this quarrel must happen? I'm having my faculty test soon and you're in the midst of your exams. It's not a perfect timing for quarrels. But, I'm sure this would go soon right? I hope everything would be back to normal. Yes, it's my fault. I aint gonna give up on us(:
I'm lazy to upload pictures cos' it's taking too long :D
